4 more weeks...

I have not posted for quite a while and today, I finally found some time to write...my wedding will be in FOUR weeks time from today...things are starting to get chaotic...my in-laws are starting to panic and this is making me nervous. I think I have got everything covered but everything seems too perfect...when you think you've got "everything" covered, something else comes up that is NOT covered...haha...although I keep going over my list of things to do again and again...hhmm...seems to be done, but still I can't help feeling I've missed out on some things...but can't seem to figure out what I've missed out...sigh...I think all brides & grooms go through this...

I am trying my best to stay calm and rational...cos once we panic, everything will be messy...now that my in-laws have started panicking, they are not thinking rationally already, can't blame them, this is the first wedding in the family for this generation and some more he is the eldest grandchild and eldest son in the family...sigh...why do we put ourselves through such madness for a ceremony...BUT, this is a VERY important ceremony, a once-in-a-lifetime ceremony that unites 2 people...2 families together...I thank God that my family is not getting themselves involved in the wedding preparation. They are just going to relax and be at the ceremony and enjoy themselves...stress free :) that should be the way...let the bride & groom kau tim, cos it their wedding after all...why can't my in-laws just sit back & relax and TRUST that we will do a good job in planning the wedding...

For his relatives to voice out and give suggestions & opinions are fine, and we will take them into consideration if it is a good suggestion...but if it is not what we want, why not just let us decide whether we want to do it or not? Why must they insist or butt-in to our preparation and make changes when we have already prepared/set our minds to something else. It just gives me more headache to make changes...we cannot please everyone...there must be a limit...it is best that we do what we feel comfortable doing...now I understand why some couples break off their wedding during the preparation...the stress from family, in-laws and relatives can be really bad...I can't seem to gain weight no matter how much I eat...my hair is dropping, dunno if it is becos it is getting too long or becos I changed shampoo recently or becos of the stress, sometimes I can't sleep at nights...although I seem fine on the outside...very calm, very relaxed, but I am not...I don't want to seem stressful for everyone's sake...I want to make sure I keep the situation in control and I want them to remain calm, if I panic, everyone will panic with me...cos I am the bride...but then again, when they see that I am so calm and relaxed, they panic more because they think I am not doing anything...hahahaha...but in actual fact, I planned 95% of the whole wedding.

Some of his family & relatives actually asked me why I am so thin, I told them, I am stressed for the wedding, they ask me why? what am I so busy with? what am I doing that is so stressful? huh???...hahaha...I didn't know what to say? I was thinking, what question is that? what why? cos I am busy planning the wedding, that's why...but they actually didn't know that I planned everything from A-Z...all they did was go crazy with their guest list & invitation cards and they think the whole wedding ceremony evolves around their guest list only...hahaha...the guest list is the only thing in a wedding. Everything happens on its own...hehehe...ya...I wish! Sigh...so...4 weeks...28 days...672 hours................................................ ..........*fingers crossed*...